I Know This Guy...

I know this guy, he is always helpful. Anytime I mess up, he is there to help me get things right.

When I get mad or cop an attitude, he lets it go and moves forward. When I rebel, he doesn't give up on me. He loves me.

If I am sad, he gives me hugs and understanding. When I am exhausted, he gives me a break and takes over.

He accepts me for who I am and tries to help me head in the right direction. He gives me gifts and wants to hang out. He always has time for me.

If anyone treats me wrong, he takes care of it. He surprises me in the little things all the time. He told me that I could be in his family and made me a princess.

I know this guy, His name is Jesus and I love Him. Do you know Him?

(Psalm 103)

Trusting God Completely

Recently life has had a lot of change and pressures. On the surface everything looks the same but internally things are very different. Here are a few things that we currently are learning through;

1) Our kids are turning into teens. They are no longer children but not yet adults. This is new territory and there are lots of new situations to figure out. This summer we start teaching our son to drive.

2) Secondly, we have had many unexpected expenses (car problems and medical/dental), this puts pressure on us to live under our circumstances instead of trusting God with our future.

3) Lastly, we felt led to let our kids prayerfully decide whether to go to public school or continue home schooling during high school. They have both chosen to attend public high school. This will change our lifestyle and bring on new circumstances and challenges to work through.

The other day I was waiting for our son who was taking a SAT exam when I felt prompted by the Holy Spirit. In my heart  I thought "I need to either 'trust God completely' or 'doubt God completely'. That was a pretty cut and dry way to look at things. I can't doubt God completely because I know that He is good, so that only leaves one thing- to trust His goodness with all my heart. Otherwise, I will carry a load of burden that I was not meant to carry.

Another thing that God showed me today was that He is orchestrating my life and I don't have anything to fear except getting in His way and trying to work things out on my own. I have made that mistake one too many times. I just need to follow His plans in order to let Him do what He feels is  best for my life. 

As I think about how I am united with Christ (Eph 2:6), it makes me wonder why I allow worry to take hold of me and fear to determine my level of contentment. I am praying for Satan's lies to flee and for my heart to be filled with a confident peace. :)